Another egg sat lonely and waiting

Tonight I ovulated..... quite late in my cycle, CD19. It was a weird ovulation, very little mucous and no urge to hunt down sperm at all. Like until I ovulated tonight I thought I still had days to go as i had very little mucous and my cervix was kind of half heartedly open. Things didn't feel all that fertile....lucky we weren't a baby making this month then!
I had my last appointment with the herbalist/reflexologist on Thursday and she identifies a soreness related to my pituitary gland on the left side, meaning possible ovulation on the left, and sure enough, the pain was indeed on the left side! She said my feet felt different from the last visit....next visit is in a month and hopefully I'll get the green light to go make a baby!

Meanwhile, I think of that egg, floating down the tube wondering if it is gonna get lucky this month, slowly ageing and dieing in there, unfulfilled.....

Tangentially, Pony Gal lost her second tooth today! We were looking at it after dinner and commenting on how it has part of me in it and part of her grand mother and great grandmother. Poor thing, you could see it was a total mind f*ck for her! But still the amazing concept of all those women from times gone by sat in that little tooth!

The cycle continues

Bleeding again. If I stop and think about it, I think of the egg that never had a chance to become new life, I think of the fact that I am not pregnant, that my womb is crying a river of red over not achieving her goal of housing new life. I feel the blood come in spurts through the day, if I cough or move differently or nurse Water Boy. My aim this month was to catch all my blood on cloth, but we are traveling tomorrow and I have no way of soaking and washing my cloth, so will get up tomorrow and put my moon cup in.
This cycle was a shorter one. Ovulated on the dark of the moon, CD16, and bled a few days before she became full on CD29 (13day LP). I am taking a whole heap of herbs, had a reflexology session last Thursday and taking supplements. I am aiming to balance my hormones....and the herbs also contain fertility promoting herbs....

Before the end of the year I'll be trying to halt the monthly cycles, trying to find a mate for my egg, hoping my womb will embrace her role of making a beautiful soft cushiony home for a small spark of life.

But until then, I will bleed, I will ovulate, I will be aware, in tune and enjoy noticing the dance my body is doing as she does what she does best. I LOVE being a woman!!!!!